Its been awhile!

I know it's been forever, there has been alot of things going on in my life recently so I have been busy dealing with that.  So to start things off my little boy bear is doing wonderful, we finished wiring together his pen so now he can run all day instead of being stuck in a crate! Also his "boy parts" have dropped so now he is officially a man! I am a very proud momma.  On to other news... me and tyler (my boyfriend of three years) have parted ways. Crazy I know. We just werent bringing out the best in eachother anymore and no matter how hard each of us tried to work at the relationship it was doing nothing but going south. I had my breaking points and he had his, but at the end he was the one strong enough to call it quits.  It was difficult in the beggining, the house was lonely and things constantly reminded me of him, but its been about 2 weeks now and I am much better.  I have made peace with is and I honestly wish him the best. Although we brought out ugly sides of eachother he is a very wonderful man and I really hope he finds someone who will meet everyone of his needs. I've been doing good... I'm definately not ready to date yet, i found that out the hard way lol, but I like being by myself and gaining back my independence. You dont realize how much of yourself you loose when your in a realationship..and I'm not saying thats a bad thing.. I think two people should always become one when they love eachother.. its just when it doesnt work out you realize you've kind of lost who you were in the beggining. So like I said I'm finding myself and I'm enjoying doing that. I've been spending more time with friends and family. I actually made a bucket list of things I've always been scared to do, or afraid I would be critized in doing so. So far I have learned how to drive a tractor, I'm learning how to rope, I actually got to come out of the head box all by myself which was CRAZY exciting. I still want to learn how to shoot a shotgun and pull a trailor, but I will soon, I have more than enough time on my hands :) I was sick all this weekend and didnt get to do anything which really sucked, BUT I did get re-do my bedroom and completely clean the house which felt really good and was kick start to the new me and my new life :) There's alot more I need to talk about but I dont have a whole lot of time.  Bottom line is... breakups are hard, and you will never stop caring for that person, especially since this is the longest and realiest relationship I've been in.  It's always hard to leave things behind especially when you planned on a marriage with them. But things happen for a reason, and everytime one door closes another opens. hopefully one day we can be friends, I would really like that.  But until then, I wish him and his family the best, they are wonderful people and I care for all of them deeply.  Well I have to go and get some more "new dom" stuff done! Hope everyone is doing fabulous! XOXO