Tired

I've been packing all night. Slowly my house was getting empty. I'm
excited to move, really I am. I'm just so sad about it too. There are
alot of memories in this house. My mom won't be right across the
driveway anymore. The rain won't sound the same without my tin roof,
instead of waking up and looking out across the pasture and tanks I'll
be looking at a strangers house. I know moving is something I need to
do and it will help me grow and be more independent but it's so very
hard. There's no going back at this point though. I guess that's a
good thing so I have to go through with it.. It's just thinking "this
will never be my home again" I will never walk through these doors and
it be like it use to be. Does everyone go through this when they move
out on their own? I just want to make sure so I feel a little better.
Please please let me know how everyone feels or felt going through this.

A very tired and sad XOXO

Getting Everything Situated

I honestly had no idea how stressful moving is, and technically I havent even started packing! I'm dealing with the electric, water, gas, and cable companies right now. On top of changing my mailing address and all of that fun stuff. I am excited though, I keep trying to figure out how I'm going to decorate everything and its making me that much more excited! I have alot to say but not enough time to type. Hope everyone has a great day!

XOXO

Starting the year off fresh

I think I found a new home! Now please don't get me wrong, I LOVE where I'm at, I really do. But never felt like it was "mine" and I wasn't really on my own since I live across the drive way from my mom. This will give me the opportunity to really live on my own. So the house is super cute. It's older and needs some tlc but once I put my touch I think it will be super cute! Only tough thing is after all my bills each month I will only have about $400 to spare.. For groceries and other things, it's going to be tight but I'm looking for a little part time gig. I've already sent out a messgae to all my friends about babysitting and things like that but we will see. Hopefully I can pull it off because I'm really excited. I think it will be a great way to start the year off and give me that extra boost! Wish me luck, hopefully I can get started on it soon :) XOXO

It's almost 2011!

Which is very exciting for me! Because I am totally reinventing myself :) I start my diet today along with my workouts! I don't have school to interfere or a boyfriend at that! I also would like to completely re-do my house...but I have to have money for that, and unless I start stripping I wont come into alot of that any time soon (totally kidding about the stripping by the way lol) I really don't have much of a new years resolution besides to be healthier and make this year about me! Some may call it selfish and thats fine but I've spent so much time pleasing everone else and working so hard for my education that I never really got time to do what I want! ALSO! another project I have started is making me happy! I am a magazine fanatic to say the least, there are so many great articles that would help out so much with every day things. Problem is I always forget about them! So I've decided to start a little bit of a scrapbook. Nothing fancy at all, just going to tear out the articles that I like and stick it in there :) Silly I konw, but it makes me happy! I'll post more later! XOXO

Good Read

I am reading the newest release of glamour magazine at the air port
and they have a great section on what little things you can do each
day to make you happy, positive, and more upbeat. It is a really good
read. Be sure to snag this off the shelf asap!

XOXO

It's Christmas Day!!!

Christmas is that one day that's ok to sit in your jammies all day and never stop eating. Gotta love it!! So I finally get to tell y'all my big suprise!! I flew in to new Orleans yesterday and suprised my family for Christmas! They were so excited. My grandma looked like she might faint and my mom wouldn't stop crying lol. I wish I could spend more than one day with them but unfortuantly I have to leave tomorrow :( I am super excited to be here though. I hope everyone has an amazing Christmas and a very wonderful new years! XOXO

Sweet Kim~

As most of you know I absolutely love Miss Kim Kardashian, shes just fabulous! She went to LA Childrens hospital to hand out toys to the sick kids, how sweet!!! If I had the time or money I would do the same.  Just goes to show even the rich and famous still care about the less fortunate.  Sweet girl!  (perezhilton.com)

XOXO

Happy Birthday!!

So! What is everyone doing for the best birthday in the world tomorrow?!? I hope everone will be with their families and getting stuffed on junk and Chritmas dinner!!! But lets not forget why we have this Holiday :) I think honestly my most favorite part of the Christmas Day celebrations would be the stocking stuffers! Thats a defniate! along with the fudge and onion dip of course! I hope everyone has a blessed Holiday tomorrow! XOXO

Gas Prices?!?

Wow this is getting a bit rediculous! I was watching the news this morning and they were saying that the gas prices for Christmas this year have been the highest they have ever been.  They round up to be around $3 a gallon.. and for someone like me who only gets 13 miles to the gallon that is definately killer! I hope they go down like they did last time we had this high gas price problem. 

KXXv (a local news station) reported:

It's the first time that the average retail price has been above $3 a gallon at Christmas. The average pump price rose about a cent and a half a gallon overnight, to $3.01, according to AAA, Wright Express and Oil Price Information Service. That's 14 cents more than a month ago and 43 cents higher than a year ago.

What does everyone else this of this awesome way of draining our money?!?!

XOXO

Another Movie Review

9 1/2 WEEKS

First off... WOW!! Not necessarily in a good way but this movie was beyond HOTT steamy. The story line was weird and alot of parts were just confusing and all together eery BUT it will definitely get you worked up :) funny part was one of my best guy friends watched it with me (seriously like family) and we were both like.. "omg" haha we kept lookin at each other and didnt know what to say.. AKWARD!! lol it was pretty funny. Anyways. I would recommend it as one of those movies you watch when your sick at home and nothing is on TV but it does have MATURE content... really, so watch it with caution :) 

XOXO 

What a freaking morning!

So .... I'm really starting to hate my truck. Lets start off with the first thing.. I had a slow leak in one of my tires for a while and finally went to get it checked, found out its not the tire, its the wheel (or rim). The freakin metal has a little bitty hole in it which is letting air out and to replace that I'm going to have to fork out around $300. Next thing.. yesterday when I went to start it, it didnt do anything; which left me driving the farm truck. JJ jumped it off and got it running so today it should have been fine. NOPE! This morning it wouldnt even respond at all and the interior light was flashing on and off along with some red light behind my steering wheel. Wonderful right? And lets not forget I am beyond broke and can barely afford the diesel to drive the monster gas guzzler. I just want to punch something... I think a punching bag might be my next purchase. Hope everyone has a better day than mine! XOXO

Stupid Disney Love

I just have a little something silly that I HAVE to get off my chest....  WHY did our parents and everyone's parents fill out heads with movies like cinderella, snow white, beauty and the beast that led us to believe that our prince charming was going to come and rescue us and make our lives compelte?!! That does nothing but make little girls grow up and expect some fairy tale story with a happy ending that about 85% of the time never happens!

Sidenote: Yes I know there is true love out there (this being said very dry & monotone) I know that there are married couples that have been together for thirty plus years and are still that much in love with them to this day... back to my venting..

But I gurantee you none of them risked their life for them or tried to change everything they were or showed up on a white horse and was "all that is man". I'm sorry but there's no man out there like that! and I will add that there's not a happy go lucky everythings perfect and my hair never has a bad day princess either. But still, we all watch these movies growing up leading us to believe that it is true and when we realize its not BAM!  like a freakin bag of rocks smacking you in the face saying "good morning lonely girl".... hahaha its funny...but then again its not.. because its so freaking true. well just thought I would share my anger towards stupid fairytails. k bye! XOXO

Movie thoughts

"The Seat Filler"

This was a romantic comedy that I had never heard of before. I really enjoyed it, it was pretty cute. The story line had been used before but it was still a good watch, I would recomend it :)

"I love you beth cooper"

This one was just OK it was also a comedy..I guess a little romantic but I didnt enjoy it very much. I think it could of been alot funnier with better direction, I just found myself playing on my phone more than watching the movie.

XOXO

Friends...

I had an e-mail this morning from Ms. Morgan in Oregon about true friends....

Man I could say a few things about friends. I have had the honor of having some really great one's but also have had some really rotten ones. I guess I'm the type of friend that puts EVERYTHING into a friendship. Who puts them first no matter what, will always be there for them when they need me. I guess the bad part with that is I always expect the same in return.  Which usually comes to bite me in the tush! The bad things about friends is in order to become closer to them you share information with them, secrets, and things you wouldnt tell anyone else. Some of the time they keep it to themselves, but other times they dont. I just cant understand why that is. Isn't everyone raised to know when to keep their mouths shut and be respectful of other people? even if they weren't raised that way, isnt that kind of a given for every human being? Apparently not sometimes.. am I the only person this bugs? I hope not either. Another pet peve of mine is when your girls get boyfriends... OMG we dont mind hearing about them but dang when you constantly ditch us for them that just isn't cool. Cuz guess what? Sooner or later ya'll are going to break up... (depending on the friend) and if you spent 90% of ya'lls relationship ditching us to go hang with him guess what were gonna do? that's right! Were not going to be there, best friends arn't your welcome mat to come visit only when you have a problem with the man your choosing over your friends.  I know I can honestly say that I have NEVER ditched my friends for a man. I respect my girls more than that, and no man is more important than my girls... Sorry Morgan I kind of went off a little bit there. But the point is.. well I think you get it. Friends will be there forever, boys wont, and if he is a good man, he will never ask you to take time away from your friends to spend time with you (as long as you spend an appropriate amount of time with him).  You dont want your girlfriends resenting you for it later :) hope all my venting helped! lol XOXO

It just never ends!

So I've been beyond sick since sunday night. I literally left my bed maybe two times since this morning, plus I had some other stuff going on that made me even sicker to my stomach. I am back at work now though, so sorry that I havent had any posts lately. I did decide a chirstmas gift I want though. I want one of those little Dell "notebooks" like a laptop that fits in my purse... ya know?! That way I could blog and write ALL the time! and it would fit easily into my purse & wouldn't be a huge hassel. that would be fantastic. :) But christmas is like saturday so I'm really not expecting it.. maybe I'll get it for myself. It shouldnt be that expensive. I mean all i need is wifi, microsoft office, and those kind of basic things... maybe I'll treat my self after a couple of months of savings :) the last two sick days would have been much better had I had a little laptop :) oh well... XOXO

Don't ask- Don't Tell ... Obama

This is truly a day to be remembered!

At 9:35am this morning, President Barack Obama signed the 'Don't Ask, Don't Tell' repeal bill into law in front of about 500 invitees, including many LGBT veterans, like Lt. Dan Choi, who were discharged due to the RIDICULOUS policy!

The President reportedly spoke for about 20 minutes prior to the signing, and his sentiments are best summed up by these poignant, true words:

“We are not a nation that says don’t ask, don’t tell. We are a nation that says, out of many, we are one. You are not the first to have to endure this, but you are the last.”

We cannot even BEGIN to tell you how absolutely ELATED and PROUD we feel on behalf of this country and its leaders!  It was a long, seemingly unnecessary fight filled with heartbreak and frustration, but progress is FINALLY on its way! We can only keep moving forward now, and we are confident that we will!

EQUAL RIGHTS FOR ALL!!

XOXO

This post was brought to you by perezhilton.com

Addition to the bucket list

Growing up from early age all the way to current day I have been facinated with The Holocaust. I cant tell you why but it was just a very tragic thing and it amazes me that it actually happened. One of my biggest insperations growing up was a young girl named Anne Frank. Growing up in school I almost always did reports on her and the holocaust. I'm telling you all of this because I've always wanted to go to the Anne Franke musuem. Problem is that its located in Amsterdam, and lord knows I cant afford to go there, but it really has always been a dream of mine. I was inspired by the way she wrote and struggled to survive and back when I was researching her I was her age so it was that much more amazing to me. I hope one day I will be able to make it to the museum. That would be amazing. XOXO

Christmas Time

Well after a very eventful and emotional night I got about two full hours of sleep and now get to spend allll day celebrating Christmas. My office christmas party is today at 11:30, then my moms office party is after that and then some close friends of ours is later on after that one. It's going to be a long day and I'm gonna try like hell to put on a smile and fake that Christmas spirit. I'm gonna try to blog some events today but as I said out Christmas party is early and I have work to do ;) I hope everyone has a great friday and a fantastic weekend. XOXO

Bad Mommy!

Star magazine and Perez Hilton are reporting rumors about Amber being pregnant again. I'm not sure if alot of ya'll watch Teen Mom, but I certainly do. Amber is my least favorite. It's pretty bad that after her scene they have to put up commercials about domestic abuse, and now she's having another one? Honey! didnt you learn your lesson the first time. I mean ya everyone can make a mistake once but is it that hard to keep your legs closed or at least wrap up the junk? Come one now.... your a mom, think like one! Grr.... I'm going to try to find a few clips of Ambers dumbass moments so we can all get a little more aquanted.

Just FYI this clip is for mature audiences only... and it definately shows the true sides of this mommy. A prime example of why some people just shouldnt reproduce!!

XOXO

Paying for Facebook

Just for the record I copied all of this information from perezhilton.com

Pretty soon, we're going to have to pay for our profiles! This is just a step in a BAD direction!

Sources are reporting that Facebook is in talks to start selling giftcards for the website. These cards would buy you "digital currency" that could be used in games and applications found on the social network.
According to reports, "virtual goods" is a billion dollar industry, but we're assuming that has more to do with music and media than gaming. Still, Facebook sees a way to bring in the $$$ and they're going to take it!
As long as this "digital currency" remains exclusive to games and has nothing to do with accessing profiles, we're fine with these shenanigans - but as soon as we have to start paying to log-in to our profile, we're calling GAME OVER!


What does everyone think? I dont really care if they start charging for games because honestly I dont play them at all but if they start charging just to use facebook ie my profile and such... thats going to be a bummer. I'm not going to add another dang bill to my expenses. I hope they never go that far with it. XOXO

Pink Denies Her Water Birth

In touch weekely apparently had stated that Pink was going to give water birth to her fetus when that time came but pink quickly denied that on her twitter check out her comment. I'm definately a big fan of this girl! She rocks!! XOXO

OUTSOURCED --

Ok so at the beginning of the season I had planned on watching this show but totally forgot about it. Now I'm debating trying to catch up or not. Has anyone watched it? Is is worth catching up on? Let me know! XOXO

Good Morning!!

I am super bummed that I missed the meteor shower last night. I was so excited about it, but my alarm never went off to wake me up :( or maybe it did but I wasnt going to pry myself out of bed and midnight to go site out in the cold. Hopefully I will get to see another one day. So about this suprise I have going..everything is looking great! It is going to be so exciting and is going to start the new year off so great. I can't wait to tell everyone what I'm doing, a hint: it will make me feel much better about myself! Or maybe thats just to throw you off? haha! you will never know! I missed the news this morning because of some crazy events going on at my house so I cant comment on anything yet. I will in a little bit though once I get time to read everything. Well I hope everyone has a great Tuesday! XOXO

New addition to blog

I've added "loved it" and "didn't like this so much" at the end of
each post. Which is similar to facebooks "like" button. So enjoy
clicking those!! And please be honest so I know what y'all like :) XOXO

Great Question!

I just recieved this e-mail and thought I should share my answer with everyone. The email said: Dominique, I am really interested in this girl but we come from two very different families. I tell her she's hott and I wanna be with her but it doesn't seem like she's that interested. What do I do?

Well.. Try a different approach! I would need to know a little more about each of y'all to give a really good response but try this and if it doesn't work then come back to me. You tell her she's "hot" well that's a compliment in your eyes maybe.. But perhaps she wants to be told she's beautiful or gorgeous. Sometimes hearing were hot makes us sound like an object where beautiful makes us feel special and appreciated. Do things that maybe your not use to doing, go out of your element. Open the door for her, pull out her chair, try the "old school" manners. I don't know a girl who doesn't like that... See if this helps and get back with me. Thanks for your question! Does anyone else have Amy thoughts? Leave a comment or email me! XOXO

Stocking Stuffers!

Here is a great link for some cheap stocking stuffer ideas. Enjoy! :)

http://shine.yahoo.com/event/holidayguide/12-stocking-stuffers-under-12-budget-friendly-fashion-beauty-2424965/

and just a little FYI...I would take any of these awesome stuffers! It's like it should be called "stocking stuffers for Dom!"
XOXO

What are they talking about?!?!

The title to this article was  "20 Toy Fads We Can't Believe We Bought Into" well call me crazy but I LOVED mine!!! I even made a little basket/baby carriage that I carried him around in. I will admit though... they were a little creepy. Like in the middle of the night it randomly start talking and making noises. HAHA thats a great thing to wake up to as a child. The room is dark and all you hear is this little voice coming from the closet saying "me hungry"... ahah but I really did enjoy mine while it lasted. My Grandma took me to the store and let me pick the one out that I wanted for Christmas. I was super excited. Another thing I miss, GI Gi pets! those things were the bomb! haha XOXO

Good God Miley!

This just makes me sick to my stomach. Apparently this is "legal" marijuana that miss Miley Cyrus is smoking on her 18th birthday... ya ok.. I called her going down hill the minute she started getting famous. So sad to see sweet girls demolish mess up their lives like that. XOXO

Can't believe I forgot!

I am just being totally selfish! I want to thank all of my amazing followers for your e-mails congratulating me on my graduation. They were all very sweet and super personal, they mean alot! I will try to respond to them all but it may take a little while :) and also a special thanks to the girls for helping me figure out which grad dress to pick out. Ya'll are awesome! XOXO

I'm a graduate!

Saturday was amazing. The graduation went good and I had only the most important people there to celebrate with me.  Walking across that stage felt amazing and surprisingly enough for the first time ever they pronounced my name correctly, so that was definitely a plus! The BBQ was a blast, everyone showed up and had a really good time. I'm so thankful for all of my family and friends, they are always there for me and always support me through everything.  I think it's too late to transfer to Tarleton State University for the Spring but I will be starting this summer.  Onto other things.... I'm VERY happy right now :) I wont go into detail because really it's not a big deal.. just really thankful for a certain friend of mine who has helped me out alot lately, you never know how some people turn out but when you realize how great they are is when you know you've lucked out.... OH! and I have even more exciting news but I can't tell because its a HUGE surprise... but after the surprise is over I will definitely tell ya'll :) ok well.... I gotta go now. Everyone have a great day!! XOXO

Learned a lesson

So I learned a lesson yesterday... even when someone says "I wanna hear what you wanna say" sometimes they really don't. I've always been one to keep my real feelings hidden because I would never want to hurt someone with the bitter truth and I also tend to be a little dramatic with my reasoning. But something in me snapped yesterday and all my anger that I've been holding in let loose. I'm not saying the things I said werent true or didnt have a meaning because they did. But I dont think I presented it very well...or really thought about everything I was spilling out. Anyways I did apologize and of course never got a response (which is understandable) but a word of advice if anyone wants you to tell them the truth..maybe sugar coat it a little..and think about what you say before you say it. I'm not going to lie though... it felt really good to get it all out :) ONTO other things! I found a dress last night! Its not the one I wanted at all but it will do. After all I'm going to wear it under a grad gown for like 2 hours so really no one is going to see it lol. But I am really excited about it! My bestest guy friend Heston is coming over tonight (becuase I ditched him last night and he gave me the freaking guilt trip allll night) and were going to clean my entire house for the party saturday.  It should be loads of fun! Have a great day everyone! :) XOXO

I need help!

Ok I have narrowed it down to four dresses for graduation. Please e-mail me and tell me which one you think would look best! I have to go after work so I only have about and hour or so to decide. Thanks! Much love XOXO

Thinking about Tanya

I dont know if all of ya'll know but I got into a horrible wreck in Feburary last year. A 19 year old girl ran a stop sign, I had no time to react and hit her. She passed three days later. I'm just a little down about it today. I want to send out my love and apologies to the Strong family. I dont know why things like this happen and I wish they never would.

Rest In Peace ♥

It's a celebration

Well I passed my last exam and made a "B" in the class! Which means I am defiantly graduating Saturday! I mean I knew I was but just that extra knowledge makes me feel much better.  I celebrated last night with some close friends and family at a local bar called George's.  Wasn't a crazy night, after all I have work everyday :) but was fun to relax and clear all that studying and stressing from my head.  I cant wait until Saturday its going to be so much fun. Alot of people have said they were coming so I'm really looking forward to it. I got home yesterday and I swear JJ had gathered a forrest for the bonfire. I mean actual trees were piled up in the pit and an entire flat bed full of more.  He's gonna be cutting mesquite today for the brisket..yumm! I'm so lucky to have such good friends and family :) Well I'll post more later. Hope everyone has a fabulous day.. and here's a quick scripture for ya'll..one of my favorites... "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" - Philippians 4:13 XOXO

My OH My

Saying this year has been nothing short of exhausting would be a large understatement.  So many negative things have shown their faces to me and I've had to take them and deal with them best as I know how.  I've lost alot of good people and other important things but I guess thats the price to pay when some of them show their true colors. There are alot of hard lessons we learn in life, one i have recently learned is people change, and when we hold on to what they use to be we will only be let down...yes sometimes they change for the better..but in my recent experiences that has not been the outcome of my findings.  Its hard to let go of the person you use to know, even know some of the great quailities they use to posses they still own, they may have picken up a few new one's that arn't so flattering.  I will always love everyone for who they really are, there are always going to be small things in every person I dont agree with but that is with any human being on this earth including me.  I am a grown woman and I need to start thinking like one.  So when it comes down to it.. even if we dont like it.. some people are not a part of our lives for a reason, and even though some say its bad to put up walls..the one's I'm building are going to do nothing but make me stronger and have better judgment.  With saying that on to better news. I took my Algebra exam yesterday and owned it! I have one more exam tonight and if goes as planned I will finally be walking across the stage saturday getting my degree.  I know a two year degree isn't all that, but looking back where I was four years ago..I'm very proud of myself and never though I would have seen this day. Although I dont have anyone "special" in my life to share this joy with thats ok..... my friends fill that emptiness and I'm learning to accept it also.  It's kind of nice knowing I dont HAVE to have a man by my side to make me feel good about myself (not saying I wouldnt want one) but its making me stronger.. I've never really known what it was like to be alone and on my own.  Yes I live next door to my mother but to be fair about that I pay ALL of my own bills, she pays not one of my expenses.  She's more of my best friend and a great neighbor so anyone who has anything negative to say about that please hit me with your best shot because I'm pretty sure your not standing alone.  So back to graduating.. I've had alot of people as me "so whats next?" for the first time ever I dont have a plan.. and i like it! Yes I will continue my education after a short break, I'm happy with where I'm working so I'm not planning on a career change. But right now my canvas is blank and ready to be painted on. I have nothing holding me back anymore, I have no one's feelings to take into concideration with my decisions, my friends and family fully support anything I want to do with my life.  So maybe try modeling again? maybe continue my book I started writing three years ago? maybe even move and start everything fresh and new? who knows, all I know is I can do whatever I want with my life and that feeling is absolutely fabulous.  I define who I am... I wont let anyone crush my dreams or put me down.  No one will determine who I am anymore :) and love life? I'll take it as it comes... all i know is I'm not waisting anymore time with something I dont believe wont last, one red flag and I'm out.. as my grandmother always said "you better like what you get in the beginning, because thats as good as its ever going to get" and that is so true its scary! So like I said, nothing but the best... Well I feel like I've been writing a short story lol.  I hope everyone had a great thanksgiving and holiday weekend with friends and family.  and I hope everyone has an amazing christmas and new years eve! XOXO

Turning another page

Well my life has changed drastically.  A couple of weeks ago I was crazy in love and trying to find a house in Austin, and now I find myself with a broken heart, confused, and alone once again. Sad yes but me and Chris split for good reasons and on good terms. Just sucks that it had to happen, sucks that timing really is everything, and sucks that once again I'm alone for the holidays. But thats life and you have to take it as it comes.  I have great friends and family to keep my head up, and an imagination to keep me going.  I guess it was better to find out now rather than two years down the road though :) Well on another positive note this is the last week of classes.  And next saturday I will be walking across the stage and getting my college degree :) Thats definately something to look forward to! So whats next? No idea, but I dont have anything holding me back, my life is open and ready for opportunity. (Trying to stay positive :) Well as for now I have to get back to...well nothing.. but at least I'm alive! Love ya'll XOXO

What a weekend

Chris came to see me this weekend. It was amazing. Friday night I cooked him dinner and we went to a roping and sat out there and told stories all night with everyone. Saturday we slept in, went to see a movie, went to smokey rays with his family. Then went to Ice House for a little bit where all my friends got to meet him and of coure loved him. Then we had a bonfire at my place which was so cool. A buddy of his came and played guitar all night, we all sang and snuggled up by the fire, it was like a dream. Sunday we didnt do much. We cooked breakfast and hung out at the house. Went to his parents that night for dinner and watched the cowboys get their butts kicked...again. Then him and his friend Ryan sat out at my house and caught up on old times while I went to bed :) He was still asleep when I left for work this morninig but hopefully he will stop by my work on his way home. On another note I actually ran into one of Tylers family members this weekend. His name is Happy and he's the oldest of the brothers. I got teary eyed when he gave me a big hug and kiss on the cheek. We talked about how much we all missed eachother and caught up on everything. It was really good to see him, just made me miss that family so much. Well I gotta get to work now. I'll try to find sometime for some other updates. XOXO

My New Page Has Turned

Life is simple, exciting, positive, and awesome as of now.  I finally found myself and I couldnt be any happier.  Everything has fallen into place perfectly for me.  I honestly dont think I've ever been this much in love, this secure with myself and this happy about life.  I guess it goes to show everything happens for a reason. Although I wish it (the breakup) didnt happen the way it did, it has still given me the best gift yet. Not many people are lucky enough to fall in love with their best friend, and for them to love them back that much more. He makes me feel like I can do anything, and makes me feel so beautiful without even saying anything.. ok enough about all of that. I'm sure I'm making everyone naucious with all of my happiness.  It really does feel great though! I will have to say this though, the distance thing is killing me. 3 hours away is torture, I saw him this past weekend and it was nothing but amazing. Hopefully I will get to see him for awhile saturday but I'm not sure yet.  So my mom's friends from New Orleans are in town but I've been crazy busy and havent really gotten to spend much time with them.  I've also been really stressed about school. I'm supposed to graduate this december depending on how I do with my last two classes. But one of those is Algebra which I SUCK at. So I've been working really hard but still not getting the results I would like. It's all ok though....Chris always makes me feel so much better about it and has offered to help countless times, he wants nothing more than to see me succeed :) Needless to say...I'm the luckiest girl in the world <3 XOXO

Thing I miss

Yes breaking up with Tyler was hard and it always takes time to heal. But I have to say the one thing I miss the most is Logan. Seeing pictures of everyone always stings a little bit but seeing a picture of logan is what brings a tear almost every time.  I watched her grow for nearly three years and had a great bond with her. With all of her birthdays, her recitals, christmas, easter.... its just the hardest thing. Of course I always get attached to children, its always hard for me saying goodbye to them. Just yesterday one of my little daycare girls cried when I had to leave for work and yes I cried on the way out.... I just can't wait until I have my own. I know I'm young and all of that but I feel that there is so much more to life. I'm past partying and having a "good time" I dont go out much anyways, probably the same amount I would if I had a child anyways.  It's just like a piece of me hasn't been filled yet and it sucks. I know I need to wait, but its like I pretty much already have my life started. I'm 22, fixing to graduate college, have a great job and a great home.  I'm ready to go! haha.  I wouldn't even mind being a single parent, although I do think a child needs a father in there life, I never had one and I'm just fine. Plus I have my p paw, uncle bob, uncle barry and the whole crew to fill that void if I ever did end up being a single parent. The point is that I miss that little girl, it breaks my heart that she's going to grow up and not remember me. Hopefully one day I will have one of my own soon...can't wait to have my little Emma Riley in my arms :) XOXO

Oh Mondays

First off I would like to say that I definately can't party like I use too. I was a zombie all day at work and what sucked even worse is I was busy as heck & my online Algebra class started today. Needless to say it's 8:00 and I'm already in bed :) but I'm still studying for my child guidance test that i have tomorrow :/ so ALOT happened this weekend some good and some bad. I would get into detail... But I don't want to lol. I guess just certain things that happen seem to open your eyes. You know what I REALLY hate?! When grown people can't act like adults.... It's a never ending phenominon I swear. Anyways now that's off my chest lol. My head has been a little "off" lately and it's kind of hard to explain. As much as fun as Califonia was what I really want is to be at a resort all alone with no one except a bar tender. Just stick me in a hammock on the beach for a couple of weeks :) I really did look up vacation prices today at work but realized it's
almost winter :( dang the cold weather! So anyways this weekend was eventful, like I said good and bad but I can say that I learned alot about myself so that's always a good thing :) oops! gotta go fold laundry. XOXO

Home sweet home

California was nothing but amazing but was also long & expensive. On a
personal note I am still going through some personal stuff but I know
I will make it through. Just wish some things could of gone
differently but I guess that's the way it's supposed to be right? Need
to say alot more but im tired, sick, and it's late. Love ya'll XOXO

It's late

I could write 20 pages about how amazing this past weekend was but it
late & getting no sleep all weekend has caught up with me. Anyways I
can honestly say I haven't smiled and laughed as much as I did this
weekend literally in years. It's amazing how one person can make you
feel like a whole new better you. He's amazing, and he's been my best
friend for over 5 years, and I've never felt luckier. He does nothing
but lift me up and make me feel like a better person. I use to be
crazy jealous, insecure, question everything, hold back, and
complicate everything but it's like I said, I'm a whole new person & I
don't know how he does it.... I mean he works with mentally challenged
people every day.... How much more amazing and respectable can a
person be than that? Anyways I love him & his family. They have always
been close to me, his mom even argued that I was more her and daddys
friend than chris's lol. Sitting around a fire with them singing to a
solo guitar, looking at the stars while I'm getting sang to and not to
minchin my feet rubbed... Ha ya, try not to get too jealous. I could
go on and on but I honestly am falling asleep & he's txting me so I
gotta go :) XOXO

Its been awhile!

I know it's been forever, there has been alot of things going on in my life recently so I have been busy dealing with that.  So to start things off my little boy bear is doing wonderful, we finished wiring together his pen so now he can run all day instead of being stuck in a crate! Also his "boy parts" have dropped so now he is officially a man! I am a very proud momma.  On to other news... me and tyler (my boyfriend of three years) have parted ways. Crazy I know. We just werent bringing out the best in eachother anymore and no matter how hard each of us tried to work at the relationship it was doing nothing but going south. I had my breaking points and he had his, but at the end he was the one strong enough to call it quits.  It was difficult in the beggining, the house was lonely and things constantly reminded me of him, but its been about 2 weeks now and I am much better.  I have made peace with is and I honestly wish him the best. Although we brought out ugly sides of eachother he is a very wonderful man and I really hope he finds someone who will meet everyone of his needs. I've been doing good... I'm definately not ready to date yet, i found that out the hard way lol, but I like being by myself and gaining back my independence. You dont realize how much of yourself you loose when your in a realationship..and I'm not saying thats a bad thing.. I think two people should always become one when they love eachother.. its just when it doesnt work out you realize you've kind of lost who you were in the beggining. So like I said I'm finding myself and I'm enjoying doing that. I've been spending more time with friends and family. I actually made a bucket list of things I've always been scared to do, or afraid I would be critized in doing so. So far I have learned how to drive a tractor, I'm learning how to rope, I actually got to come out of the head box all by myself which was CRAZY exciting. I still want to learn how to shoot a shotgun and pull a trailor, but I will soon, I have more than enough time on my hands :) I was sick all this weekend and didnt get to do anything which really sucked, BUT I did get re-do my bedroom and completely clean the house which felt really good and was kick start to the new me and my new life :) There's alot more I need to talk about but I dont have a whole lot of time.  Bottom line is... breakups are hard, and you will never stop caring for that person, especially since this is the longest and realiest relationship I've been in.  It's always hard to leave things behind especially when you planned on a marriage with them. But things happen for a reason, and everytime one door closes another opens. hopefully one day we can be friends, I would really like that.  But until then, I wish him and his family the best, they are wonderful people and I care for all of them deeply.  Well I have to go and get some more "new dom" stuff done! Hope everyone is doing fabulous! XOXO

A little insane

So here's the deal.  I need two more classes this fall in order to graduate. One is Algebra and its a mandatory class, the other class is child development which I just chose because I needed three more hours of any class time.  Well come to find out this Child Development class is part of an entire program which requires two hours of internship time a week until december. Doesnt sound that bad right? well heres my schedule as of now. Work 8-5 m-f. Monday nights I have zumba until 8:30, Tusday nights I have night class until 9, wednesday nights I have volleyball until 9:30, thursday nights I usually have moms finances which could go for a while or may not be that bad and fridays...well fridays are always busy because its beginning of weekend :) SO that leaves the time frame of...well none seeing as the only times to do the internship hours are from 7-5 m-f. So that leaves the only option of doing it tuesday and wednesday mornings from 7-8 in the morning. Which I know doesnt sound THAT bad but you have to take in account the campus is about 20 minutes from my house so my gas $$ is gonna kill me, and not to minchin I have to get up at 5:30 instead of my normal 6:45. I know i can do it, its just gonna be a struggle! I'm already dreading it, but at least I get to work with kids. The only bad thing about it is that the guidlines for this daycare are WAY different from the daycares I've worked at. I can't just play freely with the kids, one little "oops" can get me kicked out of the class. and being "nieve" about these strict guidlines is no exception. I can't even tell a kid "no". crazy right? I dont even know if I can talk about this, I had to fill out a "confidentiality" agreement, but I think that only has to do with talking about the kids...I hope! Ok then wish me luck :) XOXO

Friends & Fun

This weekend was eventful. Me Tyler dali Brent & Kayla all went to schlitterbahn cuz dali is awesome and got us free tickets and a hotel :) all was good nothing crazy really happened, just a relaxing weekend with the friends. Watched the cowboys game Saturday night and hit cabelas and an outlet mall on the way home today. I was kind of in a funky mood most of the weekend though, not sure what was up but overall it was fun. How was everyone elses weekend? I hope they were fabulous. XOXO

Exciting Weekend!

In about 7 hours I will be home, pack and be on the 3 hour road trip to schlitterbahn with "the crew".  This is going to be so much fun and will most likely be memorable! I love going places with my bestest friends there is definately never a dull moment.  Also since were going to a waterpark I wont have my phone therefore no updates...which really isnt that big of deal since I have hardly post anything anyways, lol.  I hope everyone else has a great weekend and good luck on starting fall classes next week. Its so crazy I literally get one week of break from summer classes and fall classes but only two more and I'm done. YAY!!!! XOXO

It's been awhile!

Needless to say I've been oober busy lately BUT I passed all 5 of my summer classes and now only have two more in the fall and then I graduate! So thats a relief! And not to minchin it is pre-season so that is amazing of course. Bear is FINALLY getting better at getting to sleep fast and waking up at a decent hour to be let out. Only like a month and a half until California!! I am getting kind of nervous though with all of these random plane crashes.  So whats new in everyone else's world!>?!?! XOXO

My New Baby

I have a new addition to my family. His name is bear:) he is a 6 week old Australian Shepperd. My best friend Dali got him for me.  Bella isn't too fond of him yet but I'm hoping they become friends. I know she's sad about sharing my attention and it kills me! The little guy is in the process of being krate trained which means he cries ALL night...and not little whimpers either. Needless to say I got a solid 3 hours of sleep last night. I guess its good practice for when i become a mommy one day though. XOXO

We Knew it was a another stunt!

Heidi and Spencer have been sighted spending time together lately. A close friend revealed that she spent time with the two and it seemed as if they were still in love and not even going through a divorce. She also stated that spencer seemed normal..hmm... not sure what to think about this one. I think Heidi needs to grow some testis and gain her self confidence back and leave the jerk. If ANYONE talked about my mother the way spence talked about hers I know that would be the end right then and there. What do ya'll think about this "rekindling"? XOXO