Thing I miss

Yes breaking up with Tyler was hard and it always takes time to heal. But I have to say the one thing I miss the most is Logan. Seeing pictures of everyone always stings a little bit but seeing a picture of logan is what brings a tear almost every time.  I watched her grow for nearly three years and had a great bond with her. With all of her birthdays, her recitals, christmas, easter.... its just the hardest thing. Of course I always get attached to children, its always hard for me saying goodbye to them. Just yesterday one of my little daycare girls cried when I had to leave for work and yes I cried on the way out.... I just can't wait until I have my own. I know I'm young and all of that but I feel that there is so much more to life. I'm past partying and having a "good time" I dont go out much anyways, probably the same amount I would if I had a child anyways.  It's just like a piece of me hasn't been filled yet and it sucks. I know I need to wait, but its like I pretty much already have my life started. I'm 22, fixing to graduate college, have a great job and a great home.  I'm ready to go! haha.  I wouldn't even mind being a single parent, although I do think a child needs a father in there life, I never had one and I'm just fine. Plus I have my p paw, uncle bob, uncle barry and the whole crew to fill that void if I ever did end up being a single parent. The point is that I miss that little girl, it breaks my heart that she's going to grow up and not remember me. Hopefully one day I will have one of my own soon...can't wait to have my little Emma Riley in my arms :) XOXO